April 15, 2013

It’s like your heart drops to your stomach, you get a lump in your throat, and you feel like you can go days without eating. Letting our relationship go probably has to be one of the most difficult things for me. Through it all we helped keep each other strong and gave each other the comfort we needed. I can say that you came at a point in my life where I really felt like I had nobody and you truly seemed like a God sent. When even my blood refused to take me in and love me, you did and had my back through it all. You were my first boyfriend and you were the first guy I completely fell for.

Right now there’s just way too much going on in my life. With the burdens of my family resting on my shoulders, stressing about where I’m going to live in about two weeks, where I’m going to go to school, etc. I really can’t afford to be brought down because of a relationship. A healthy relationship should be one that brings the best out of each other, not the opposite. I really learned that you can never change a person and maybe it was my mistake for having that mindset.

I really hope you can understand how much I appreciate all you’ve done for me. It was a good run and I hope this isn’t the end of our friendship.. I’ll miss you and you’ll always have a special place in my heart.


2:23 PM
  • I am ashamed You call me beautiful, I am Yours and You call me beautiful.
  • I thank God for the transformation that has taken place within me. Before I wouldn’t dare forgive somebody for hurting me as bad as you did.. but now it comes with ease only with knowing that if God can forgive me for all the messed up things I’ve done to hurt Him, the least I can do is forgive a brother or sister in return.
  • I can’t say though, that what happened hasn’t changed me. I’m growing and in order to grow some things just need to happen. Even if it means being hurt.
Anonymous asked:
come over to my crib during the year and we can chill in my one room bed all day. you feeeeeeeeeeeeeeel ? ;)

HEHE, how do i already know who this is. boy, I FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL. see yah soon ;)

12:53 PM

Honest to say, I’ve grown quite a lot in the past couple of months. I mean I can’t entirely take all the credit, I honestly owe it all to the big man above. I’ve learned to rejoice through my times of joyandtimes of tribulation. Rotting and feeling sorry for myself was taking me no where and I realized if I wanted to change it all had to start with my mindset.

Everything that I once held dear were worldly things that no longer brought me the satisfaction it used to bring. Everything that was so hard for me to go through before became an ease. I learned that it doesn’t hurt to rely on someone for support, especially knowing that this person or being would never leave you.

Sacrificial, Unconditional love. Something you receive from anyone else except from my Daddy God.

I love you all :)

Cutie patooootie. Love dachshunds. <3

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